Every Night on the Edge

I live moment to moment
Event to event
Girl to girl
Anything to keep my adrenaline pumping
Anything to keep feeling alive

I am a shark
If I'm not moving I'm drowning
I can't relax I can't slow down

I need sicker and sicker beats
I need more and more women
I need a higher and higher dosage

A night not lived on the edge
Is a night I die a little more inside

I exist in delusions of grandeur
Because those are the only places I can survive anymore

This is how I live my life
The highest of highs
and
The lowest of lows




And I wouldn't want it any other way

Beautiful Monster

I watch my soul be sucked away
By this enticing goddess

It continuously destroys
Yet I love it

I want free
Yet when free I run back to it

It can't be lived with
But life without is too hard to imagine

I'm in love with my killer
So I don't press charges

I see the escape
But the door is too small
And my chains to tight

And I wonder if I'll ever get away from
This Beautiful Monster

Ignorance

I say the saying "Ignorance is bliss" is a lie
They say I speak lies

They long to have the ability to unlearn
To know sin and her ugly sisters

The look away from knowledge for something to save them
But find
Their salvation's a fake

To be at the top and find that it's not enough,
The worst feeling of all

The people on top numb their minds
with the intoxication screens
So they won't see that the sea they searched for
Has dried up



And all the while the ocean of fulfillment is available...

The Beast

I have kept it caged to long
I have taunted it with glimpses of the outside, now it wants the full picture
I can't bring myself to kill it because it is a part of me

But I can't contain it anymore
It has broken from its chains
It loves to destroy, and destroying me isn't enough
It has destroyed me from the inside and inhabited this shell
It will use me to do its bidding
I will become the monster
I will be the one that needs caged

If only I'd fired the silver bullet
Before I was consumed by the beast
The Beast

The Fat Pig

It has become a fat pig
It takes but doesn't give
It eats while our brothers starve

It is blinded by its wealth
It rapes the earth so its lifestyle may be sustained

It ignores poverty
It gains by other's loss
It doesn't care if its shoes were made with children's blood

It kills and destroys for abstract nouns like democracy and freedom

It is US.

Thirsty

I am thirsty
I wonder if I'll ever have life
I hear beautiful sounds
I see dancing
I want to break from these chains and join in
I am thirsty

I pretend that I'm not dying for a drop
I feel dried up and empty inside
I touch my brokenness
I worry that I will never have life
I cry for a drink
I am thirsty

I hear rushing waters
I feel life wash over me
I taste the sweet waters of life
I join in the beautiful sounds
I am satisfied